I’m always going to have an eating disorder. I may be recovered, but I’m still going to look at food and automatically think “fat. calories. disgusting.” I will always look in my mirror and see an obese person staring back at me. However, I can swallow and I can eat now. I can eat whatever I want and of course I feel guilty but I felt even more guilty being in the hospital and watching my family have to deal with it. If you have an eating disorder, I beg you to get help for it. It’s a mental disorder, a distortion of the mind where what you see is not what may appear. No matter what you’re going through, I’m here for you. My ask is always open. No matter what, you deserve to be helped, you deserve to be listened to because you don’t need to change yourself for anyone. Be who you are and forget anyone who thinks you’re not good enough.